Design Your Own Wonderland

I'm Changing the Seasons.

2010-10-13T13:41:00.000-04:00

Just Love.

2010-10-10T01:44:00.000-04:00

I Know that Things Are Broken.

2010-10-07T12:43:00.000-04:00

Piggies Back Home.

Heavy Heart.

2010-10-06T11:27:00.000-04:00

Help, I'm Alive.

2010-10-04T23:32:00.002-04:00

To Write Love On Her Arms Day.

2010-10-02T01:51:00.000-04:00

So To Write Love On Her Arms Day Was yesterday and today so in honor me and my roommate wrote love on ours arms and took a few pictures.

I Don't Mind.

2010-09-30T21:43:00.000-04:00

I can't make it. Of course I can't i'm not strong enough.

Memories.

2010-09-29T18:12:00.000-04:00

Atlanta

2010-09-26T21:15:00.000-04:00

So I went to Atlanta this weekend I didn't actually go in the city this time just on the out skirts but i got a few cool pictures. I plan on moving here when I get older.

Wish Me Luck!

2010-09-24T15:00:00.000-04:00

On my chemistry exam in a few minutes!

In the Darkness You Will Shine.

2010-09-23T21:41:00.000-04:00

Beginning Photography.

2010-09-22T10:30:00.000-04:00

These are some of the first pictures I took when I decided to try out photography.

Still some of my all time favorites.

Come Back to Me.

2010-09-21T18:04:00.000-04:00

I still remember how every part of you felt under my finger tips. I remember your taste and your smell and your smile, and when I think of all these things I have you back for that brief moment. You're holding me close and you're whispering to me and we're laughing and then within a half of second your gone. and i'm alone again.

Procrastination.

2010-09-20T23:24:00.000-04:00

So right now I should be studying for my biology exam that takes place TOMORROW but i'm sitting on my unopened biology book, browsing facebook, and checking out all my followers lovely posts.
Thanks to all! Invite people if you think i'm interesting and show me cool blogs you've found!

♥ Sarah.

Hold Steady to My Heart.

2010-09-19T21:08:00.002-04:00

Zombies?

2010-09-17T13:47:00.000-04:00

Anyone else wanna be around for the zombie apocalypse? because I kinda do. Is that weird?

Placebo Effect.

2010-09-17T00:12:00.000-04:00

I've been here before a few times and i'm quite aware we're dying.

Is It Fair That You Haunt My Dreams?

2010-09-15T23:24:00.000-04:00

Love.

2010-09-14T22:58:00.000-04:00

What is commonly called love, namely the desire of satisfying a voracious appetite with a certain quantity of delicate white human flesh. ~Henry Fielding

Sometimes...

2010-09-12T23:42:00.000-04:00

I have difficult days.

I'm Doing Great.

2010-09-10T19:47:00.000-04:00

I'm proud of myself. :)

Tell Yourself..

2010-09-09T23:19:00.002-04:00

That you're beautiful, because you are.

There's No Lack of Color Here.

2010-09-08T14:04:00.003-04:00

Two Years.

2010-09-05T22:11:00.000-04:00

Two years i've loved the same person. Not straying, not even thinking about another person. Yet for the last part of this year i've been fighting to keep this person in my life. Why? I really don't know. They're not the person I once knew. They're cruel and corrupted. They treat me like shit to be quite honest. They only want to be kind to me when they want something but when I need them they're never there. I think I'm done. Its going to be difficult but for my own wellness I think I have to. So here's me finally burying the love that's been dead for months now. I've done all I can to fix you but you're gone.

To love someone is to isolate him from the world, wipe out every trace of him, dispossess him of his shadow, drag him into a murderous future. It is to circle around the other like a dead star and absorb him into a black light.
Jean Baudrillard

Give Me the Strength.

2010-09-04T21:53:00.000-04:00

To break away from things that harm me.

The hanged Man.

2010-09-04T01:28:00.001-04:00

The Fool settles beneath a tree, intent on finding his spiritual self. There he stays for nine days, without eating, barely moving. People pass by him, animals, clouds, the wind, the rain, the stars, sun and moon. On the ninth day, with no conscious thought of why, he climbs a branch and dangles upside down like a child, giving up for a moment, all that he is, wants, knows or cares about. Coins fall from his pockets and as he gazes down on them - seeing them not as money but only as round bits of metal - everything suddenly changes perspective. It is as if he's hanging between the mundane world and the spiritual world, able to see both. It is a dazzling moment, dreamlike yet crystal clear. Connections he never understood before are made, mysteries are revealed.

But timeless as this moment of clarity seems, he realizes that it will not last. Very soon, he must right himself, and when he does, things will be different. He will have to act on what he's learned. For now, however, he just hangs, weightless as if underwater, observing, absorbing, seeing.

Heart.

2010-09-02T23:52:00.000-04:00

Have a heart. Everyone is fighting a battle.

Breaking Point.

2010-08-29T22:48:00.000-04:00

There's only so far you can break a person down until they shatter. People are cruel, they will kick you when you're down and not have a second thought about it. I would love to say they will have their day but more often than not, they don't. Always keep your head up show that you're proud of the person that you are.

When the Sun Goes Down.

2010-08-28T19:31:00.000-04:00

I Come Out.

College Life.

2010-08-23T08:28:00.000-04:00

So this year I started college. I'm at UNCA and hoping to transfer to chapel hill next year. Anyway here's a picture of my room!

and the view from my room!

Thanks to all of my followers and supporters. :)

Insomniac?

2010-08-19T01:02:00.000-04:00

So I don't sleep much anymore. And i'm not the least bit tired right now. Thats a bad thing because I have to get up at 6-am. Anyway, just a few pictures that haven't went up on this site yet.

Self Ports.

2010-08-17T23:54:00.000-04:00

"I'm only one voice in a million but you ain't taking that from me."

I do a lot of self portraits just because it show cases how I feel in the moment. It looks really vain that a majority of my pictures on this blog are of me but it allows me to show my emotions to everyone who sees them. Thats pretty much the only way I show emotions. I don't open up to people in person it's like a self defense mechanism, but a picture is worth a thousand words right?

You're not in Love, You're Obsessed.

2010-08-17T00:02:00.000-04:00

If you've every went through a break up (be it just a friendship or a relationship) I'm sure you wonder what it is that held you to that person. You see all the things that you love about them but all the things that you hate about them too. Sometimes you're in love with the person who they were and not the person they are. Thats where I'm at. I met someone truly amazing and I'm still in love with that person I met, not the person I'm speaking to this very moment. He's someone very different. The person who used to tell me how amazing I was just because he wanted to, has turned into the person who tells me how they heartless I am. The person who wanted me forever, has turned into the person who only wants to control me forever while he moves on. Its a sick little game thats tampering with my hearts health.

This is Fredrick.

2010-08-16T00:22:00.000-04:00

So although it sounds crazy there is this frog who has been coming to sit on my back porch for the past two summers. I thought he got ran over but to my surprise last night, I found the bigger grown up Fredrick!

Yes, I know the likelihood of this being the same frog is pretty much impossible, but it's nice to think that somethings do come back.

Lighting props to my little sisters keychain flashlight!

Bottle Neck Effect.

2010-08-14T18:54:00.000-04:00

Everything that will go bad; will go bad all at the same time.

Barricade.

2010-08-09T01:43:00.000-04:00

Don't let anything stop you.

Ghost.

2010-08-05T01:04:00.001-04:00

What do I want? I want to erase every memory of you so all of them don't follow me around like a ghost, day after day. I want to put my love into something that will be alive again.

The keeper of secrets.

2010-08-04T00:31:00.000-04:00

Is it normal to love someone you hate? Someone who continually lets you down because they know they can get away with it? You let them get away with it because you know if you tried to do something about it, they probably wouldn't care. They probably wouldn't try to stop you from walking away like you had. They would just move on. Its really sick to feel that you're in love with someone who doesn't care; who used to care but doesn't anymore. I'm supposed to be one of those strong people who tell everyone what's what. People don't think I get depressed because they see me laugh off everything, and yet I sit here and let someone get the best of me. And then I think about everything I love about this person. About how he talks to me like no one else, and notices the things no one else does, and holds and touches and looks at me like no one else. And I think how in the world am I supposed to live without that? I can't even describe what its like to be the person that makes everyone laugh when inside you're dying asking yourself over and over 'what did I do'. I'm not a person to share my emotions with many people for some reason my mind tells me thats a sign of weakness so it makes it virtually impossible to be open with a lot of people. Except for the person I'm writing about. I told them everything which is what makes the thought of them walking out of my life down right terrifying. He's the keeper of my secrets. He holds the key to so much in my life and he was so much of my life. Now we're stuck on the edge of what to do next. No longer together, but impossible to be apart. If you ever read this you know who you are and you know that I do truly love you. Regardless.

Random photo of the day!

2010-08-02T22:38:00.000-04:00

Parking garage.

2010-08-02T00:51:00.000-04:00

Every time I go to asheville I end up in downtown. Usually its late at night when people are spilling out of bars, but Saturday I went earlier in the day and as always I had my camera with me. So while walking around my friend and I found an empty, sketchy, old parking deck. Later that night we ended up back in downtown and she didn't like the idea of going back into the deck so i just have a few pictures from earlier that day.

My very patient friend Hali, who doesn't let me go into sketchy places... at least at night.

Where to begin?

2010-07-31T13:53:00.000-04:00

Well lets see, from now on I'm going to try to document my photo's right after I take them, and tell the story that goes along (with it if there is one). But for now I'm just going to share some of my favorite photo's i've took recently.

I experiment a lot; and that's actually how these pictures came about. I have a Nikon L100 (which is not an SLR but it works). So i was sitting there in the dark with my computer on just messing around with the camera. The picture at the top is the one that came out first. Originally i had the flash up but I forgot to raise it for this picture and the camera automatically adjusted the shutter speed and the picture turned out like that. So I continued experimenting and got the next two pictures which are two of my favorites by far.