Breaking Point.

There's only so far you can break a person down until they shatter. People are cruel, they will kick you when you're down and not have a second thought about it. I would love to say they will have their day but more often than not, they don't. Always keep your head up show that you're proud of the person that you are.

When the Sun Goes Down.

I Come Out.

College Life.

So this year I started college. I'm at UNCA and hoping to transfer to chapel hill next year. Anyway here's a picture of my room!

and the view from my room!














Thanks to all of my followers and supporters. :)

Insomniac?

So I don't sleep much anymore. And i'm not the least bit tired right now. Thats a bad thing because I have to get up at 6-am. Anyway, just a few pictures that haven't went up on this site yet.

Self Ports.

"I'm only one voice in a million but you ain't taking that from me."

I do a lot of self portraits just because it show cases how I feel in the moment. It looks really vain that a majority of my pictures on this blog are of me but it allows me to show my emotions to everyone who sees them. Thats pretty much the only way I show emotions. I don't open up to people in person it's like a self defense mechanism, but a picture is worth a thousand words right?

You're not in Love, You're Obsessed.

If you've every went through a break up (be it just a friendship or a relationship) I'm sure you wonder what it is that held you to that person. You see all the things that you love about them but all the things that you hate about them too. Sometimes you're in love with the person who they were and not the person they are. Thats where I'm at. I met someone truly amazing and I'm still in love with that person I met, not the person I'm speaking to this very moment. He's someone very different. The person who used to tell me how amazing I was just because he wanted to, has turned into the person who tells me how they heartless I am. The person who wanted me forever, has turned into the person who only wants to control me forever while he moves on. Its a sick little game thats tampering with my hearts health.

This is Fredrick.

So although it sounds crazy there is this frog who has been coming to sit on my back porch for the past two summers. I thought he got ran over but to my surprise last night, I found the bigger grown up Fredrick!

Yes, I know the likelihood of this being the same frog is pretty much impossible, but it's nice to think that somethings do come back.




Lighting props to my little sisters keychain flashlight!

Bottle Neck Effect.

Everything that will go bad; will go bad all at the same time.

Barricade.

Don't let anything stop you.

Ghost.

What do I want? I want to erase every memory of you so all of them don't follow me around like a ghost, day after day. I want to put my love into something that will be alive again.

The keeper of secrets.

Is it normal to love someone you hate? Someone who continually lets you down because they know they can get away with it? You let them get away with it because you know if you tried to do something about it, they probably wouldn't care. They probably wouldn't try to stop you from walking away like you had. They would just move on. Its really sick to feel that you're in love with someone who doesn't care; who used to care but doesn't anymore. I'm supposed to be one of those strong people who tell everyone what's what. People don't think I get depressed because they see me laugh off everything, and yet I sit here and let someone get the best of me. And then I think about everything I love about this person. About how he talks to me like no one else, and notices the things no one else does, and holds and touches and looks at me like no one else. And I think how in the world am I supposed to live without that? I can't even describe what its like to be the person that makes everyone laugh when inside you're dying asking yourself over and over 'what did I do'. I'm not a person to share my emotions with many people for some reason my mind tells me thats a sign of weakness so it makes it virtually impossible to be open with a lot of people. Except for the person I'm writing about. I told them everything which is what makes the thought of them walking out of my life down right terrifying. He's the keeper of my secrets. He holds the key to so much in my life and he was so much of my life. Now we're stuck on the edge of what to do next. No longer together, but impossible to be apart. If you ever read this you know who you are and you know that I do truly love you. Regardless.

Random photo of the day!

Parking garage.

Every time I go to asheville I end up in downtown. Usually its late at night when people are spilling out of bars, but Saturday I went earlier in the day and as always I had my camera with me. So while walking around my friend and I found an empty, sketchy, old parking deck. Later that night we ended up back in downtown and she didn't like the idea of going back into the deck so i just have a few pictures from earlier that day.

  

My very patient friend Hali, who doesn't let me go into sketchy places... at least at night.