I'm Doing Great.

I'm proud of myself. :)

Tell Yourself..

That you're beautiful, because you are.

There's No Lack of Color Here.

Two Years.

Two years i've loved the same person. Not straying, not even thinking about another person. Yet for the last part of this year i've been fighting to keep this person in my life. Why? I really don't know. They're not the person I once knew. They're cruel and corrupted. They treat me like shit to be quite honest. They only want to be kind to me when they want something but when I need them they're never there. I think I'm done. Its going to be difficult but for my own wellness I think I have to. So here's me finally burying the love that's been dead for months now. I've done all I can to fix you but you're gone.


To love someone is to isolate him from the world, wipe out every trace of him, dispossess him of his shadow, drag him into a murderous future. It is to circle around the other like a dead star and absorb him into a black light.
Jean Baudrillard

Give Me the Strength.

To break away from things that harm me.

The hanged Man.

The Fool settles beneath a tree, intent on finding his spiritual self. There he stays for nine days, without eating, barely moving. People pass by him, animals, clouds, the wind, the rain, the stars, sun and moon. On the ninth day, with no conscious thought of why, he climbs a branch and dangles upside down like a child, giving up for a moment, all that he is, wants, knows or cares about. Coins fall from his pockets and as he gazes down on them - seeing them not as money but only as round bits of metal - everything suddenly changes perspective. It is as if he's hanging between the mundane world and the spiritual world, able to see both. It is a dazzling moment, dreamlike yet crystal clear. Connections he never understood before are made, mysteries are revealed.


But timeless as this moment of clarity seems, he realizes that it will not last. Very soon, he must right himself, and when he does, things will be different. He will have to act on what he's learned. For now, however, he just hangs, weightless as if underwater, observing, absorbing, seeing.

Heart.

Have a heart. Everyone is fighting a battle.